Similar to you, my gf has the password to my phone parental controls. All of my vices are blocked. It's the only thing that's helped me break the habit (on my phone, at least).
But recently I figured out a way to get past Cold Turkey Blocker on my laptop. I opened instagram for the first time in a year or two and at first was enthralled at all the stuff my friends were posting and talking about. It felt like I was catching up a conversation they were all having without me & I couldn't get enough.
And then (!!) I got bored. I GOT BORED OF INSTAGRAM!!! Which had never happened to me before. It was like I could see through the facade. And I also got bored of reddit which I have blocked and unblocked countless times. I still go on for a bit every day but it doesn't swallow hours and hours.. especially since it's only available on my laptop and not my phone. So my 'extreme measures' are still necessary but just a little less necessary than before and I am celebrating that.
I bought a kindle and have been reading out the wazoo. While I have been going through cycles of internet overuse -> reading a lot -> 'relapsing' -> and back round again for the past few years, each time I 'get clean' I have more ease and am more grounded than the previous time.
I'm excited for your zines. Thanks for your writing.
Maybe we're the crazy ones here! I relate to everything you're saying, so accurate. I really appreciate this part: "So my 'extreme measures' are still necessary but just a little less necessary than before and I am celebrating that."
It feels good to not feel too whacky because I'm the only one doing all the "extreme" things to get offline, thank you for reading and sharing your experience.
hi as an ethiopian i struggle with this with my last name. fe-le-ke. or even my first name sah-bah. your story feels very personal to me. i struggle being in the diaspora and staying true to myself , but i guess if its a choice to be misunderstood then we can choose to be visible and understood only to those who deserve that privilege. thank u < 3
แฐแแ!! This means a lot to me, it wasn't easy to share this story; at the open-mic, here. I'll keep this with me: "if its a choice to be misunderstood then we can choose to be visible and understood." Maybe I'll choose better someday. Thank you for reading ๐งก
WE ARE NOT THE CRAZY ONES HERE!!!!
Similar to you, my gf has the password to my phone parental controls. All of my vices are blocked. It's the only thing that's helped me break the habit (on my phone, at least).
But recently I figured out a way to get past Cold Turkey Blocker on my laptop. I opened instagram for the first time in a year or two and at first was enthralled at all the stuff my friends were posting and talking about. It felt like I was catching up a conversation they were all having without me & I couldn't get enough.
And then (!!) I got bored. I GOT BORED OF INSTAGRAM!!! Which had never happened to me before. It was like I could see through the facade. And I also got bored of reddit which I have blocked and unblocked countless times. I still go on for a bit every day but it doesn't swallow hours and hours.. especially since it's only available on my laptop and not my phone. So my 'extreme measures' are still necessary but just a little less necessary than before and I am celebrating that.
I bought a kindle and have been reading out the wazoo. While I have been going through cycles of internet overuse -> reading a lot -> 'relapsing' -> and back round again for the past few years, each time I 'get clean' I have more ease and am more grounded than the previous time.
I'm excited for your zines. Thanks for your writing.
Maybe we're the crazy ones here! I relate to everything you're saying, so accurate. I really appreciate this part: "So my 'extreme measures' are still necessary but just a little less necessary than before and I am celebrating that."
It feels good to not feel too whacky because I'm the only one doing all the "extreme" things to get offline, thank you for reading and sharing your experience.
hi as an ethiopian i struggle with this with my last name. fe-le-ke. or even my first name sah-bah. your story feels very personal to me. i struggle being in the diaspora and staying true to myself , but i guess if its a choice to be misunderstood then we can choose to be visible and understood only to those who deserve that privilege. thank u < 3
แฐแแ!! This means a lot to me, it wasn't easy to share this story; at the open-mic, here. I'll keep this with me: "if its a choice to be misunderstood then we can choose to be visible and understood." Maybe I'll choose better someday. Thank you for reading ๐งก